While browsing through sites, i suddenly feel that i've so much stuff i wana blog about. There's so much thoughts running through my head now. I don't know how to translate all these thoughts into words. I'm really bad with words.

I visited many blogs and fb pages of my friends. Close friends, used-to-be close friends, friends blah blah blah. Some are enjoying life, some are not doing very well, some are doing what they've always wanted and some are regretting about stuff they did in the past and so on. As for me, i can say i'm doing well now, except the fact that i've lost touch with some friends out there. It's ok, as long as i know that they're all doing fine.

I miss band, i miss playing the flute, i miss having lessons with 4E1, i miss sitting beside Alex and pinching him with all my might(though i can do it now. hehe), i miss sally sneezing so loudly and the guys start imitating her, i miss rushing for lunch with the girls during olevels period, i miss mother miss kwa, i miss miss kho, i miss getting caught for extra ear studs, i miss performing with band, i miss sitting at cu with the girls and chatting till like there's no tomorrow, i miss going to the toilet with them at level 3, i miss captain's ball and i miss everything about Fuhua. I grew there, i love there, i met boyfriend there, i met jmt there, i met the band there, i met awesome teachers there and honestly, it was where i lived my life to the fullest. The best moments of my life was at fhss. When i entered jc, all my time was spent on studying and studying. I forgot how to enjoy life, i forgot about my friends, i forgot about participating in activities and all my focus was on work and only work. Jc should be filled with lots of fun and laughter and i did not get that. I regret and that's why i should go back to how i was when i was in fhss.

Just a few years back, i've many links of my friends' blogs. Every fortnight or so, i'll visit them and see how they're doing. Ever since i've lost them all, i seem to have forget them as well. Too busy with alevels and all. You see how fast paced life can be. Alevels just ended in the blink of an eye. I can't believe i survived alevels and can't exactly remember how i did that. I only know that alevels period was full of tears and negativities. HAHA. Rena is a very weak girl when it comes to handling stress. I feel that i could do much much better than how i did but oh well, i should be satisfied, shouldn't I?

Hmmm. Thoughts and emotions. I don't wana grow up because i miss the past. I don't wana grow up because i'm afraid of growing old. But if i don't grow up, how would i ever move on to the next part of my life? How would i enjoy the other best moments of my life?

"May the best of your past be the worst of your future". I'm living for almost two decades and i know i cannot turn back time. However i know that i can make my life an awesome one, can't i? :)